Hi, okay, so I was just trying to get rid of some of the writers block I've been having and I decided to just wing it and start writing what I was in the mood for which turned out to be an angsty, semi-depressing little snippet of some random last thoughts, I seem to have a tendancy towards making all my angsty pieces last thoughts before the person either dies or kills themselves. But for whatever the reason I wrote it and I decided to post it on here, just something I thought would be nice, personalizing the things I write on here.
Anyways, the story is temporarily called 'Suffocating'
I let my fake smile fall, the true sadness overtaking my whole face, the deep hurt rose to my eyes. I was so tired of playing a normal, happy person; I was so lost nothing was going to save me. I was nearly dead to the world, emotionally frozen in an eternal, dark abyss of hurt. I hated putting on the lie for others, if people really knew how I honestly felt they would have thrown me in the nearest asylum. No one saw what was actually behind my smile or actions, no one looked deep enough to see.
People looking but not seeing what was really going on around them, how I was so close to breaking, how often thoughts of suicide crossed my mind. I'd once had religion, once believed in God and feared Satin and his imps, now that was all gone. Washed away like my happiness, like dust in the wind. I got into the old oxidized car and drove to the bridge, the bridge that would end all.
No one saw me as I stepped on the walkway, as I pressed too close to the guardrailing, or as I leaned too far out for normal confort to others. They only looked when my scream was wrung from breathless lungs. I was tumbling through the air, rushing to meet the hard ground beneath me. I heard the hollow thud of my nearly lifeless corpse crash, I felt the sticky, melting goo cover my head, coating my eyes in a read, filmy halo. The halo turned black as I faded into the bottomless well of depressing hell.
- Current Location:desk
- Current Mood: artistic
- Current Music:theme from True Blood